I keep fighting the idea of walking through another season of "I don't understand" and "This makes no sense". I keep telling myself I am not afraid, but what if I am? What if I am finally admitting to being afraid that God has forgotten my heart?
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I missed it, I know I did. I chose fear over truth, and doubt over faith.
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The truth is that God sees me. He crafted my heart to love and serve the way it desires to. He hasn't forgotten a single detail. What I can't see because I have been blinded by fear is that He is waiting for me on the other side with His promise in His hands. He is waiting for me to walk directly into the familiar path of darkness, clinching onto faith while believing that He will shed light on every step I take. I already know this, I have been here before. I am currently walking out of a season with the same beginning. I have seen His faithfulness through it all even when it didn't make sense.
It's not in His plan to fail me now.
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I'm tired of fighting, God. I'm ready to say yes even though this makes no sense and I don't understand what you're up to now. 2 Peter 3:9 reminds me that You are not slow in keeping every promise You have so sweetly whispered to my heart. I will rise up in confidence ready fight for your Kingdom. I surrender my heart to Your plan, God.
My answer is, YES.
